To give yourself in childish abandon
with childish hopes of adult emotional
intensity.

Please can you make me Whole
With every look every caress
Can you keep the fears from
crumbling down my barriers of hope?

Need so consuming,
that desire to be cherished
Can you love me?
Even for a little while
Can we play pretend and you
can become everything
I ever wanted someone to be

Sculpted into daydream perfection
Whisper my name with passion
to make me want to believe
that its all real

Push my hair back from my brow and
give me your burning gaze.
Angel kisses on my nose, and
hard is how I fell

Soulful prose tumbled from your lips
I drank every last caress
Did you truly see me beautiful?

You were freedom wine ready
to be mixed with laughter
Salted in pink heather to ease the
taste of bitter time ending.

Where ever did you go?
Memory plays trick me into dream
time philosophies as I question motive

Illusions of love were ever my weak point
Always needing to be needed
Needing to be wanted even more

Childish expectations belie my vulnerability
every crack in my facade obvious to
everyone but myself

Shame can still damn me into oblivion
Could I ever have truly known you?

Time had me at quite a
disadvantage today

My perfect recall has again
pierced my soul with need
for you
As hard as I fight there’s no place
left to go except the secret places of my mind
Where I still wear your name
emblazoned upon my soul